Hidden tears.

I’m back home. Today has been an amazing day, meeting some old friends and remembering good times.
It starts to rain. I’ve always hated rain. It makes me sad.
I have a shower and afterwards I start chatting with some of my new friends. They mean a lot to me. Although I feel I don’t mean that much to them.
It makes me remember some old friends, good friends, best friends. We were inseparable. Actually in the moments I were with them we felt that we could do anything.
But now they are gone. Not a single word since the summer started. And now we are in May. I know that she has got a new boyfriend. But she was one of those girls who always said that she would never change a friend for a boyfriend.
Well, she did. And I see that I am the one who has suffered the most.
I think of my previous best friend. We liked the same music, or at least she told me so because now she has changed to totally another type. We also spoke every night on the phone but then the summer came and she forgot about me. She lost a lot of weight and she changed her friends. I guess I wasn’t good enough anymore.
I notice that I have just started crying and tomorrow I have to go to high school and I should look like a normal person if I don’t want the next couple of gossipers around me making a lot of questions. So I go to the bathroom. I try to calm down but every time that I remember the good times we had I start crying again.
I crawl into my bed, switch the lights off and start crying like a little child. I hope my mum doesn’t come to my bedroom. But I can’t stop. I tell myself that I should tell someone about this. I get the phone and I open a chat with a person that has also gone through something similar. I tell her everything but she isn’t online. I guess she is sleeping. But then she goes into the chat and start telling me that nothing is forever and that I must be strong.
I don’t feel any better because I told her but I’ve learnt that if you don’t tell someone, someday you will burst into tears in the worst moment.
I hope next day will be better.